19 Mar Be Yourself Part 1

As we grow we change but the fundamentals and foundations of who we are remain.

These foundations can stem from our culture, our families, our spirituality and our environment but either way we are rooted in them.

These roots are buried deep inside us , they are difficult to tear out but they grow with us , develop as we develop and they create new routes in the ground they are buried in ,like we create new memories and experiences on our journey through life.

 

“The world is your oyster” is something that my mother tells me all the time.

It made the world seem so much smaller, a little less intimidating.

Some of us are raised to think we can do anything , and be anything.

One thing I always tried to do was love and one thing I always tried to be was myself, a woman  of integrity.

Sometimes life will test you and send storms to see how grounded you are.

 

In 2011 I was in somewhat of an abusive relationship with a man I thought that loved me; but love and obsession are two different things. Maybe I was at fault, I was 20 , and a little adventurous , I thought that I needed to “slow down” I was achieving a lot at a faster rate than my peers, “baring fruit”  and this comparison may have been the catalyst to the storm. I told myself that the next man who asks me to be his girlfriend, I will say yes to. In hindsight , this was probably a bad idea. Who ever said “comparison was the thief of joy” was not lying. Because I compared myself to the people around me, I stopped staying true to myself and when you are not true to yourself life will send people who you are as false as the person you trying to be.